Every relationship teaches you something new not only about yourself but other people and how they are willing to treat somebody besides themselves.
You get so used to being treated bad in a crappy relationship that eventually you start pointing the finger at others...Not until recently have I finally been analyzing defaults of my own...flaws of my own --that I should/need to work on.


&& that is why being single at this moment in time is more than ideal.
I'm graduating, I need this time for me, I need to figure myself out, discover what truly makes me happy...
I see so many girls and their insecurities 'vanish' just because they have a man to complete them. I'm not that girl!...
I dont need someone to complete me. I can complete me.

Cant wait to goto India. I need that. I need to just goto my comfort zone, my people, and do some self-analysis.

It breaks my heart tho to have ever hurt someone-- never did it intentionally-- but in a sense all the past problems still haunt me-- so I guess maybe it was in a way intentional?

But whatever...I need prayers, apologizes to all, right now-- its just me, myself, & I.

Verse 1:
Everyone loves you
But they don’t love you like I do
And everyone knows you
But they ain’t seen this side of you

I’m over the measure
Then we go too forward
And I end up injured
As love turns into war

Bridge:
When I get over you
And get that dirt off my shoulder
Will I look like a fool?
Or just a whole lot older

Chorus:
Giving myself to you
Is like giving myself to a chainsaw
You keep cutting me open wide
If it’s the only thing that you’re good for
Giving myself to you
Is like giving myself to a chainsaw
You keep cutting me open wide
If it’s the only thing that you’re good for

Verse 2:
I can’t remember how we started this thing
But I know I was better before you pulled the string
Something to mention
Before you kill me slow
I won’t be the last one
The last one, that’s for sure

Bridge:
When I get over you
And get that dirt off my shoulder
Will I look like a fool?
Or just a whole lot older

Chorus:
Giving myself to you
Is like giving myself to a chainsaw
You keep cutting me open wide
If it’s the only thing that you’re good for
Giving myself to you
Is like giving myself to a chainsaw
You keep cutting me open wide
If it’s the only thing that you’re good for

B-Section:
Whatcha gonna do when you’ve had enough
Whatcha gonna say when it’s all too late
Whatcha gonna do when you fall in love
How you gonna feel when he does the same?
Whatcha gonna do when you’ve had enough
Whatcha gonna say when it’s all too late
You’re staring at the piece that you broke apart
And we all know you can’t build it back again

Chorus:
Giving myself to you
Is like giving myself to a chainsaw
You keep cutting me open wide
If it’s the only thing that you’re good for
Giving myself to you
Is like giving myself to a chainsaw
You keep cutting me open wide
If it’s the only thing that you’re good for

This Woman's beauty is so un-defined.

Let's Dissect the unanswered questions...

Is there something in the air? Do you feel it?
Is it close? Is it far? Is it here? Do you feel it?
Are you happy? You sad? You scared? Do you feel it?
Is it right? Is it wrong? Is it fair? Do you feel it?
Is it real? Is it fake? Do you care? Do you feel it?
When he stopped and he paid for head, did he feel it?
With his wife when he laid in the bed, did she feel it?
When the police kicked in the door, did he feel it?
When he had to go to war, did he feel it?
When they hung and they swung from a tree, did they feel it?
Well I know when they come for me, will I feel it
When he blew all his money to ball, did he feel it?
When that bullet came through a wall, did she feel it?
When he stopped and he dropped when he died, did he feel it?
When his momma closed his eyes, did he feel it?
When she couldn't take the pain, did she feel it?
When the dope flows through her veins, does she feel it?
When she took off all her clothes, did she feel it?
When she slid down that pole, did she feel it?
Will it all be clear to see, will I feel it?If God forgives me, will I feel it?

I ask my baby if she love me, she said she don't know
She said the game's got her heart, the
streets have got her soul
I ask my baby if she love
me, she said she don't know
She said the game's got her
heart, the streets have got her soul
I said, "Wow"

When his food come out the trash, does she feel it?
When he sleeps under the underpass, does he feel it?
When she's pregnant and smoking weed, does she feel it?
When the jury just won't believe, do they feel it?
When this song come on in the club, do you feel it?
When a racist shows you love, do you feel it?
When he know he won't win the game, do he feel it?
When a preacher is driven insane, do he feel it?
Every time I write a rhyme, do I feel it?
When I'm running out of time, will I feel it?
When the liquor is poured on the ground, do they feel it?
If my music didn't make a sound, would you feel it?

Bigger than my body gives me credit for...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R7rSv5NvAK8
Honestly, I hate being a female sometimes.

You know those commercials where a person is so hungry they see any object/person turn into a chicken or some other yummy food? Well, I sorta feel like that person/object right now.

A female is more than that. She is known to blossom into a woman that goes through alot of stuggles, fights stereotypes, and pain (most likely).
Not to get all philosiphical but when you look back in history women never got the due they deserved and were always behind the scene and the women that are in books i.e. Mother Teresa or Princess Diana are usually known because they were 'kind-hearted' or 'down to earth' etc.

The reason i'm sounding like such a feminist is because I went somewhere and encountered a guy I knew. Mind you he has a girlfriend (I know him very well) but is hitting on me as he usually does. They were slight remarks but there.
Within 5 mins I run into some other guy I knew and he is with his "boys" and I know the only reason he is even being as warm to me as he was is because he wanted to show his boys he knew me or that we were cool and the boys had the biggest smile on their faces I've ever seen.

It got me so mad. I felt like my every move at that point in time was being watched/observed. I'm not saying i'm Pamela Anderson or Halle Berry cuz I'm not! lol but I just hate that most of these dudes when talking to me are not even looking at me as one of them or human enough for them to just be NORMAL with me! .... I dont ask for alot ... And it's not just about me--

Why cant a girl be just treated as normal? Get to know me (her) as a person atleast. Yes, Physical attraction is the first any girl or guy gets attracted to with the opposite sex but can you as a man offer more than that to a female?

I think such a way of approaching a female which is 85% of the times is just ever so demeaning. Before you ever think of a female as a piece of meat just remember-- she is someone's mom or sister or daughter before she is that piece of meat. Learn to give respect in order to earn it.

And then men have the nerve to say they are 'different' or 'better than the rest' well from what they offer initally - its like a repeated cycle -- every one or every other one comes with the same method of approaching or is trying to get to the same thing.

but yeah, that is why i hate being a female.
and this is why im bigger than my body gives me credit for...
and dot dot dot dot dot

Is the glass half empty or half full?...

Do you ever see the good in someone that nobody else does?Or are you just fabricating a story, ideal in your head, cuz you are scared to loose them...Forever?